Phoenix

What am I running away from? Exactly what?
The miseries of my life ,family,…or myself!
Each day I wake up to the idleness of life. I have no p.o.a! No place to go! no goal to achieve! No dream to tame!....where on earth is that spark lost?
Why did it all have to end?------this poignant question has absolutely no answer!
But weirder is the fact that I know I am not reaching anywhere! yet walking>>>
Why am I doing this? Am I just adding more to the things that have already gone wrong with me?
Have I really crossed that line that lies between love and hate…or am I still lingering on the periphery of it???
Am I living unnoticed? or in someone else’s shell…..
I don’t know what it is? But one thing that my inner self wants my skin to know is that what lies beneath is the embryo of renaissance! An egg that gets not the cosy but the blistering warmth to hatch into someone who’s rock –solid and refuses to give up.

An Achillies ’s incarnation who’s born without the fatal heel.

a crave that never dies......

i am so damn bewildered about the viscious desires and expectations i have form myself ....... i want to be everything possible in llife....maybe coz i am just too excited for things, big or small, that happen to me...be it colg, love and perhaps his kin,the unsatiated desire to unravel the new me, a new 'top' on sale,my new pink ballerinas,the brownn clip that i bought ,my swift exhausting pocket money,my cherry flavoured lip balm....jeez...everything
everything seem b'ful and ambitious....bt on a closer view ,i have convieniently messed up everywhere....i am living a hasty life...just going with its flow....things happen to me...then they stop happening to me...again they strat happening to me.....i feel like a glutton who has to gulp every bite!....
i am sprinting in a stranded plush green land......sunny day,birds chirping, the plot is perfect.....bt then there is a profusely sweating me with a heart rate uncountable! i sit on a bench and then retire to to think i might have evrything but own nothing

i am my own piece of art..my own creation

hey fellers !!!
well.... to describe the woman i am is a tad difficult as many a times i too find it difficult to decipher what i am....the song "new soul"by yael naim describes me best at this point of time!
i am precisely on the periphery of realising my dreams and aspirations and at the same time learn a lot of things!
i look forward to gain success (by this i mean to earn name labels and of course love...i dont really understand what love is bt its absense is immensely felt).
in accordance to the song i mentioned , i make every possible mistake!!!this is how experiment with myself....
clumsy at times,goofing up every now and then ...i somehow am able to sail..bt nt smoothly sail..lol.. ppl say its fun goofing up and learning...bt perhaps this needs a deeper comprehension..which i'll only be able to do once i am done with my sailing and actually get a chance to look back on things i have done!!!
i am fun-loving and chirpy!!! doesnt mean that i am neveer serious ...i am...but i gradually triumph on my woes....
i am true feminist and absolutely condem the idea of comparing both sexes .... i guess both complete and compliment each other....
jeez i hv no clue as to what i am writing ....this place will gradually get updated ...... ;) so keep reading!!!!!