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Almost at the end of this year!
With a true belief that 2010 would be positive, promising, and of course a better world altogether!
This year has been both testing and taxing! Right now after reading “eleven minutes” and embarking on “Brida” I feel some kind of a feeling that puts me away from the regular norms of the society but then still I am raged ! There’s a lot that contribute to this frustration!
I have taken up fagging, the finances of my family are diminishing….and the moolah factor has a worse than adverse affect on me!
I cant buy clothes, cant go out to have fun…every other thought in my minds has a calculator attached.. the irony is that I still am not improving on my calculations. Market research calculations freak me out every time! Jeez I am so ducked!
“there’s a prostitute as well as a house wife in every woman” .this is a very intense and a true line quoted by Mr. Paulo Coelho. There is a “skin hunter” as well as a home spun female in a woman who looks out for adulation and security. Both these sides should meet in a very careful and a correct manner else the results could be devastating.
Never knew that I would be a loner in this world full of people….sounds dramatic but its hell true!
My friends are busy managing their love and life! I was never that close to my family! Don’t really wanna date ! am just stuck!
Eagerly waiting for this year to end….
I know there would no miracle at in the new year, but at least that would brake a severe monotony.
I have a numerous questions in my mind! The answers to them are impossible to get! nothing is easy bloody everything has an expensive tag!
I am filled with negativity!! Bad! I know! But every time I try to kick-start with a new vibe, something pulls me down! When would this end?? When?
I am NOT SCARED of being tried ……. But I am a bit exhausted repeating the same trial drill every time!