another patch....rough or smooth...no clue!

i so conveniently can find the current stage of my life in this quote.
i am somewhere happy and somewhere sad,somewhere relieved and somewhere tensed, somewhere content and somewhere insecure.
on occasions i feel that i just cant ask for anything more,and on some i feel why does happiness comes in small packages.
i am bewildered and lost in such oscillations of life.
on some occasions i feel like just giving it away and on some i really try hard to hold back.
all's well and all's not well....maybe i have to encounter the worst or the best.
perhaps its just a part of maturing or maybe this is my incorrect contemplation.
everything seems so new and on some occasions so worn out!
en strangled with these , i eagerly wait for this patch to go.....as i don't mind being happy or to suffer,its just the fear or the anxiety that is in tamable!